Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Child-like Faith

While I have been praying for a baby for almost two years now, only recently did I feel prompted to invite my little girl (now 3 and a half) to pray with me. A little over a month ago, we started praying together- morning and night- that Jesus would give her a brother or a sister.

After about a week, Berkley stopped me right after we made our request and said "no, mommy, ask Jesus for a brother AND a sister."  I smiled wide at her precious, bold, child-like faith. Her heart so whole and hopeful that she believes anything is possible. Unlike my slightly broken, heart that has let fear and disappointment cloud the vision of my spirit. I was so proud of her faith that Jesus could give us not just one, but TWO babies, that her prayer became my prayer. Of COURSE I would be over the moon if God gave us a single baby, but how wonderful if the Lord gave us what Berkley so boldly asked. It would be a miracle that our family would be reminding each other of for the rest of our lives.

At the very least, her request for such a miracle was a reminder to me of how God wants us to view him from the awe-struck, excited eyes of a child.  Every time we pray for "a brother and a sister", I'm reminded to pray expectantly and try to hold on to that child-like faith in other areas of my life.

Matthew 18:2-4

And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them, And said, Verily I say unto you, except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven. Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

I have a student's spirit. Always looking for knowledge and new things to learn. Constantly reading and soaking up information on whatever I can get my hands on. I want to teach Berkley everything I know, especially everything I know and am learning about the Lord. But it was such a beautiful moment that I got to learn a lesson from her.  And I'm sure it won't be the last.

Fast forward about three more weeks and, once again, she interrupts our prayer and says, "Mommy, why hasn't Jesus given me a brother or sister?" It was difficult not to laugh about the fact that after about four short weeks of praying for a baby, she was asking the same question I have been asking for over a year. I explained that sometimes we have to wait on Jesus, but to keep on praying and asking, I kissed her goodnight, closed her door and thought about how she must have just made Jesus smile.

I can't wait for the day that I get to tell her Jesus has answered our prayers!  In the meantime, I realize that patience isn't really a virtue in this family :)

QUICK UPDATE! IUI #5 was last week and went very well... now, the waiting...


1 comment:

  1. Love this. Thanks for linking up on my blog. Fingers crossed for your IUI.



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